But, now that it's the start of a new week, there is something I want to bring to your attention... I've been having a hard time staying on track. In the past two weeks, as I've dredged up this emotional stuff to talk about with you and with my thereapist-- I've also eaten an ENTIRE back each of Fig Newtons, Oreos and Potato Chips. I've also eaten some ice cream and lots and lots of cookies brought into work by my evil co-workers.
This all culminated in my scale refusing to register my weight on Weigh-In Wednesday last week. Every time I stepped on it, the reading came back "Error". How rude! I guess it could tell that I wasn't staying true to my diet.
You may have heard about the dieting "Cheat Day," a discussion I intend to address fully later.... Well, my cheat days were starting to become something of a "Cheat Week and a half." Of course I countered my bad eating decisions with double workouts at the gym... but I started to feel lethargic and just plain gross. I even stopped logging what I ate because it was incredibly ashamed that I had started stooping back to hat level.
I mean, there's nothing wrong with an Oreo or two every once in a while... or a night out at a restaurant. But there's certainly no need to to down an entire bag in one sitting.
After my week of eating badly, I decided to try and figure out what was the root cause of this binge eating. And this is what I came up with:
Emotions. My emotions play a big role in what I eat and how much of it goes in my mouth. When I'm reminded of painful memories, I lunge for the carton of ice cream or bag of Oreos. And I don't just stop at one or two-- I eat the whole damn thing! It's how I got into this mess in the first place... and something I've been working really hard to avoid.
But alas, none of us are immune to our weaknesses and what triggers them. So instead, I've decided to do something different. Instead of giving up after a week or two of bad eating... I'm going to power through, and start a journal. My doctor thought it would be good practice to carry a journal around and write down my thoughts when I'm feeling emotional. It might even keep me from reaching for the junk food. And I couldn't agree more. There's obviously something I'm choosing not to deal with-- and instead letting food fill my void.
Another thing I decided to do to counteract these less-than-great decisions was to remind myself of my goals. So, I went back and read through my post from March.
|Originally from: "Weight Loss Goals & Rewards"|
|Originally from: "Success is so Sweet!"|
Besides, I still have 25 more pounds to lose before I can buy myself a new bathing suit! (Read more here)
That's my update for this week! How is everyone else doing on their weight loss goals, if you have them? Comments welcome below!